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| rjisinspired |
| Posted: May 23 2010, 06:01 PM |
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I had talked about a film maker who had seen a demo video of me with the pxl 2000 last year on Myspace and had contacted me to be part of the documentary on this camera.
Yesterday went pretty well. Mike, the film maker, had an assistant with him, also named Mike, who also is into video and audio and we went around certain places in my area where I used the pxl camera. Mike had to bring in a spare pxl body because mine isn't functioning. This makes things rather difficult because I have extra pxl tapes in storage but since his time is short, leaving tomorrow, I won't be able to have pxl footage until I get my unit repaired. All I had to present was only one pxl tape of me made on February 27th, 1988. I was 13 at that time.
When the pxl was connected to the TV the quality was a bit bad but you could see video and hear the sound of me and a cat I once had. I couldn't believe how young I was! Seeing pixelvision of myself from 22 years + 3 months ago really hit me. This footage of me playing back this tape will be part of the documentary.
I believe the pxl was missing the rca TV connection so we walked to radio shack to buy one. I don't know why but maybe the original pxl TV connection has something to do with the connection quality since I remember the quality being a bit better than what we had viewed through a new rca cable. The conventional rca cables do not fit correctly into the hole in the back of the camera. Wondering if a pxl TV connector may be floating around anywhere.
I felt kind of nervous actually because the film guys traveled from Austin Texas to the East Coast and having only one tape available to view seems like a waste of time but things ended up going well. Part of my biography will also be included in the film. I even played back a few audio tapes from 1985 when I was a kid taking music lessons. At some time I will need to digitize some of those old cassettes. They sound kind of grainy now and you can tell they have aged.
This is the place I'm looking into to get my pxl repaired:
http://bentstruments.com/pxl/pxl.html
Mike's spare body was fully modded by this place and I was, am, very amazed at what work was done on his camera. It's fully loaded just as what that web page describes. Mike had his connected to a small hi-def camera for live previewing and he could also save to the storage of the camera, awesome!
Today will be the final day we I will meet with Mike and Mike and it will be more of a personal day. I'll be taking some still pictures with an old Hasselblad camera I had when I was a student at Hallmark and probably shoot around the Smith College area.
A part of my mind is in a rush though to get more done and I am working on controlling this part of my anxiety and attachment condition. I should be happy with what I had to offer him. I'm sometimes trying to cram more and it isn't necessary.
The anxiety increases when I either cannot find something or maybe will never find something and it is enough to cause problems for me because these things are considered losses where I may not be able to get something back. Like certain tapes or other items, if I have them or don't have them and if they are damaged can I fix them and get them back. I can replace tapes into different cassette shells if need be. The thoughts and remembering of certain tapes or items stay with me and creates sometimes intense sensations that I am told is part of anxiety and of being rushed and is maybe connected to a slight hoarding condition i do have.
I am doing better somewhat though and I'm not taking medication still. I have been through that route and it makes things much worse. Part of the trick, though it doesn't work all the time and is never guaranteed, is self convincing that I will eventually get what needs to get done and if something can never be returned, retrieved, etc, that it isn't the end of the world. A part of my mind tells me that it is when part of me knows it isn't.
Could this be separation anxiety but with inanimate objects and memories?
Anyway. I'll be getting ready soon, another hour, to see the Mikes' What I had though might had been a disaster has turned out well. By the time I get my pxl fixed I would have extras to send to him for his documentary. Might take close to a year to complete the thing so I do have time. It just telling my mind to calm down and relax I will need to work on.
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| rjisinspired |
| Posted: May 24 2010, 02:59 AM |
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Day two was great. Did some more stuff about my life and did some shooting of me using my own equipment when I use to do photography. Not only were they carrying equipment, I was carrying my Hasselblad gear, lol.
Small clip of the two Film makers. Mike Koshkin, guy with the glasses holding his modded pxl 2000, and Mike, didn't catch his last name.
Taken with the old Aiptek, ehhem crap, camera:
http://rjschat.dyndns.org:8080/Paranoha/AP...makers-xvid.avi
They work great together, totally professional in what they do. I had a great time. |
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